If I am interested in you – as a friend, as a person, just because I like your shoes – I try to find out things about you. I will stalk your tumblr. If you have an Instagram, I will look through your pictures. If you have a Facebook account you eventually share with me, I will read it too. Is that strange? I want to know what people like, what makes them smile. I will ask questions, I will pay attention to your answers and I try really hard to remember things. I’m not always successful but I try.
So why is it that some people who have the same access to me don’t do those things? Am I not worth the effort? Or am I just an overeager weirdo? I am honestly asking. I have a hard time trusting someone who seems to know very little about me but pretends like they do. I tend to overshare and I get that not everyone is like that. I do. But if say, you keep spelling my name wrong, or seem to ignore things about me I am going to decide you are only after something for yourself.
That’s fine by the way, you don’t owe me anything here. Just don’t pretend that you really care ok? Don’t act like you are interested in me and then not remember my kid’s name. I’m going to notice.
I don’t know how many people keep journals or post online various things but how often to do read back on them? Sometimes I feel like I have the same 4 complaints all the time, at least now that I am an adult and a parent. Does everyone do that? Or am I seriously failing in the personal growth department?
I know there are some areas that is probably true. I spend a lot of time not attempting things out of fear. It’s silly and when I talk to people I care about I would tell them a million different ways not to be afraid and how amazing they are and they can do anything – and I still can’t really look myself in the eye when I look in the mirror.